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Is what I’m doing today getting me closer to where I want to be tomorrow?

Tue Dec 29th, 2015 2:55 am

As the New Year is just hours away, I’m asking myself this question a lot. I usually try to be prepared with plans, resolutions, goals and dreams way before this day. But I seem to have found myself a little behind this year.

Perhaps only because I have much much much more of them. I am past 50 years old now, and starting to feel the clock ticking. We moved to Oregon eight years ago and although our lives grew much richer for the experiences we had since buying and selling a Blueberry Farm, and since buying and training a horse, and since buying and growing a business, I still can’t figure out where all the time went. It seems in eight years something more significant should have taken place.

Because of that, and because of the fact that I have allowed almost ALL OF 51 years to go by without making intentional plans about where I want to be in a year, eight years, and beyond, I am feeling a lot more pressure to get on with planning my life.

I abhor that I did not see the value in planning my future until just now.

Actually, over the past year, I’ve made a pretty good go at learning the ropes. (THANK YOU Todd Durkin!!) Every six weeks I come up with goals to accomplish. In the 12 months or so that I started this procedure I’ve really grown to see the big picture.

But at this New Year, and the prospect of the possibility that I might be looking back eight years from now, I REALLY want that thought to be clothed in satisfaction. And, dare I say, pride… pride in the fact that I set out to accomplish something and purposefully worked toward it.

Today, however, I’m feeling a bit sorry for myself. I don’t know why these feelings hit so often, but today I’m doing my best to deal appropriately with it. When I pray in gratitude for all the Many Blessings in my life, my perspective changes. It doesn’t bring me out of the slump, but it does prevent a deeper one. I went for a walk to enjoy some cool, fresh outdoors. My dogs are a big challenge for me on a walk, but I resolved to keep my language toward them, and my self-talk positive and upbeat. It didn’t bring me out of my slump, but it sure didn’t make it worse!

I want so desperately to be further along in my career, in my life, in my relationships… than I am now. I feel so cheated out of decades of life that could have been spent planning and creating great career and friendships.

But I can be thankful that I get to start now, and not never. And I can be affirming all the talents and skills and experiences that have lead me to this place now so I can continue to make an increasing impact for good in our community.

So, yes… I can say, without a doubt, that What I Am Doing Today, IS Bringing Me Closer To Where I Want To Be Tomorrow.